long live!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

before i was a mom..

Before I was a Mom…
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was Mom…
I had never been puked on,
Pooped on,
Spat on,
Chewed on,
Peed on,
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom…
I had complete control of my mind,
My thoughts.
My body,
And my time.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom…
I never held down a screaming child,
So that doctors could do tests,
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
Watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom…
I never held a sleeping baby just because.
I didn’t want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces.
When I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom…
I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom…
I had never risen in the middle of the night.
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was alright.
I had never known the warmth,
The joy,
The love,
The heartache,
The wonderment,
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom



thanks Rafique Zaquan for all the special feelings you bring me into..


just love to be your mom..

love u baby..

5 comments:

Hanis MY said...

hopefully Rafique akan baca semua ur entries bila dia besar nanti... best2..tahun ni raya mana?

Mama Marcello said...

LoVe U2 Baby and mama baby hehe~
so wonderful kan being a mommy..
Alhamdulillah...

wardah @ fie shah said...

beautiful..love you too rafique..

Hunny said...

the most amazing gift Allah has given us in our life kan...

feel truly blessed having the little person in our lives...memang penat tapi totally worth it :)

Najib Sulaiman said...

ada button like facebook? ;-)