masa awal2 pembabitan dalam parenting world, i already realized it was'nt only learning about the newborn, but actually the time to learn about myself. learn about my level of patience and my own strength and weakness. kalau dengan orang lain, i am such a big-headed when i want something, never feel guilty for not give-up, tapi bila ada anak, i menjadi seorang yang lebih lembut hati. walaupun malam2 rasa macam nak tidur je, malas nak celik mata, apetah lagi bangun dari katil, but with my little captain i have to give in my bed time. give in for diaper call at night as well as mimilk time.
i once thought bila Rafique dah besar sikit, things should get better. well yes, in term of diaper call, he no more poop in the middle of the night. his pee or diaper change is more scheduled. breastfeeding getting easier at night as he know where to get "it". i dont need to wake up and sit to breastfeed him. very true. tapi bila dah besar ni, start new challenge pulak when he now loves to kick or climb me/hubby tengah2 malam. mana punyer habit he inherit pun tak tahu.
he used to be a very strong baby. terhantuk sikit2, xde ape pun. x nanges. now???? manja ya Rabbi. jatuh sikit, nanges. terhantuk x berbunyi pun, nanges. and veryyyyy clingy. this phase is really testing my patience. when he wants to play something that we dont allow him, mula lah dia throw tantrum. and being Rafique who loves to kick ball so much, he started to kick people as well. ini sangat merunsingkan. so far, dia cuma kick me n hubby je.tak bagi dia kick kita, mengamuk pulak!! anyhow, setakat ni belum dengar his BS cakap Rafique kick others. i hope not. takut pulak orang cakap anak kita kurang ajar.
rungsing. was googling for solution for this. anak 1 tahun suka sepak orang. what should i do?
patut pukul ke? marah tak yah cakap lah. memang everytime pun marah n cubit kaki. in fact penah pukul kaki dia pakai hanger. pukul tak kuat pun, tapi sambil tu ibu nanges dalam hati. rasa bersalah. tapi x nak pukul pun takut makin menjadi2..how eh??
i came to read in interesting article about being parent to a toddler. i summarize macam ini:
- toddlers misbehaved to show their expression. be it tantrum,
i harap apa yang i tulis ni takdelah menakutkan u all yang belum reach this state of parenting. other than the situations that put your nerve on like these, bila anak dah besar macam ni adalah menyeronokkan..u ada teman untuk borak2 when your husband balik keje lewat..you have friend to watch cartoon with, he start to respond to your story books, he can hugs you when you feel sad (and even kiss you)!! i paling suka tengok Rafique masa dia tengah tido..rasa sejuk je mata. terus lupa semua pern
"parenting world starts at the moment you find out that you are pregnant, but it will never stop until you die" - Prof. Dr. Nurdina Awanis ;P